Another new year is well under way now and as with all my other personal posts, the inspiration to share usually comes out of the blue and then I follow the nudge when I can. This is my journal entry and I guess an update for family and friends. As the new year began I looked back on 2014 and realised what a very introspective year it was for me. I needed the solace and the space to heal and prepare for new life. Sarah joined our family in October 2014 and with her was born joy and healing for our family. Each day brings a newness with it as I hear her gurgling in her cot every morning to wake me up and then Dylan stumbling down the hall to see if “Baby Sarah” is awake. We lie there slowly greeting the day with smiles and joking and I feel blessed. Simon’s smiling face looks down on me all around the house from the beautiful photos of him and I know he is with us as we walk this road starting a new chapter. Dylan amazes me with is honesty and open-hearted approach to life. He misses Simon every day in a different way, always remembering him as he says his prayers at the end of the day with Dom and I. Then there is Dom, my crazy one of a kind husband, I love seeing him smile and cry as he tells Sarah about her older brother in the photos as he walks her around the house in her favourite forward facing position. The chats with Dylan about movie scripts, limos, Star Wars and times they had with Simon and how much he loves him, make me smile. When I look around me, I realise my landscape has changed and so have I. I see my world through different eyes now. I am grateful for the love, joy and healing.