Today it is 2 years since our beautiful Simon left us. There are so many different words I would like to use instead of “left us”, “passed away” or “moved on”, but it won’t change the fact that he is gone to us in this world and reality. His human chapter with us came to an abrupt end. Way to soon for me as I sit here looking at all the pictures of his funny, happy, smiley face looking down at me. Spring time brings up mixed feelings for me as new life starts to bud all around, I find my heart contracting into a place of disbelief and sadness. As time goes on and I struggle to make sense of life at times, I have been finding moments of peace in surrendering as I exhale. I read this poem the other day and I find myself re-reading it as a reminder that life is good.
Life is amazing. And then it’s awful.
And then it’s amazing again.
And in between the amazing and the awful
its ordinary and mundane and routine.
Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful
and relax and exhale during the ordinary.
That’s just living
heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life.
And it’s breathtakingly beautiful.
– L R Knost –
So Simon, as I think of you today, more than every other day, know I love you to infinity and beyond and that it’s “see you later” not good-bye.